Selasa, 16 Maret 2010

pagi, around 12.00 a.m.

ku berjalan menyusuri kota Jakarta, with a friend of mine. Yes, just the two of us. we talked about many things, from my relationship to hers, theories, politics, human behaviours, bands, and even sex, and many more. apart from all of that, Jakarta is a very beautiful place, terlepas dari banyaknya kemacetan, sampah-sampah yang menumpuk, dan macam-macam. we drived along bintaros until kelapa gading. Yes, we drived through north till south Jakarta! It was a truly a wonderful journey, just like the movie Before Sunrise, dimana diceritakan seorang laki-laki yang baru putus dan seorang wanita yang (kalo g salah) being dumped by his boy. And then they met, and, kinda to say that they both have an instant chemistry between them and decided to spent the night all the way in Paris (or France? i forgot. hahaha). And we spent the whole day seeing each other (that means we spent the whole monday together, well, not entirely) from daytime until the next daytime, just like Before Sunrise. Hmm, where will we go next time? hahaha :0

pagi, 6.00 a.m.

pulang kerumah, with the feel a little bit sleepy. i even slept on my way home! hahaha. you know, it's kinda a letdown because, you know, i have this feeling towards her and it's kinda sad that this morning (when we drived along the city of Jakarta) when she told me about her relationship status at present. ku tertidur sesaat setelah kubuka kamarku.

siang, 2.00 p.m.

terbangun, kedinginan, ketika kulihat pemandangan diluar, its raining outside. heavy rain. maybe windy. i don't know. i don't care. kulihat sisa rokokku dalam kotak rokok. my oh my, there's only 2 pieces left! oh i'm such a heavy smoker (padahal semalem cuma beli setengah bungkus dan lebih sering minta hahaha). Well, i burned my cigarette, while i was watching the view. Ah, betapa segarnya angin berhembus disiang hari ini. perlahan kudengar alunan lagu dari ponselku Orange Latte - Rain Song. Sejenak ku termenung akan hal semalam. Her words, altough i couldn't reach it, i'm just happy just to spent the whole day with her. And just seeing this rain, i'm wondering if she sees them, too.

"...somebody there who is seeing the same drops
same color of the same grey cloud
who always get a question start and make me think
is that somebody think about me while she feels the rain
I wish to send my love
I wish she send me love
throughout this rain"

*Orange Latte - Rain song

Sore, 5.00 p.m.

Fuh, after struggling with my paperworks and assignments, i think it's the best time to have a smoke or two! kuraih pintu teras dan kubuka, kudapati pemandangan luar. hujan. Ya, still raining, tapi masih lebih mendingan daripada tadi siang. Untuk sejenak, kepikirkan tentang masa depanku. tidak mungkin untuk aku untuk tinggal terus disini, dirumah ini. yang ada nantinya akan terus terbelenggu. i always wanted freedom. free from all the things in this house.

night, 8.00 p.m.

Finally, the assignments are all finished? It's time to have another cigarettes. jadi bingung kan mau ngapain. Have a dinner maybe. Alone. When i think about it, it reminds me of the moment where i'll be living alone. Whether in a renthouse or an apartment. Maybe invite a couple of friends to stay, or invite a girl. the girl who was with me last night, maybe? hmm...we'll see that :)

midnight

Insomniac's still haunting me. Gives me time to think about anything. Maybe i could come up with many thoughts or something..